I'm In It To Win It

I was born outta wedlock

But that don’t make me an abomination

In fact I’m one of God’s greatest creations

Made in his perfect image

Fearfully and wonderfully created

I’m “5’5 with brown eyes, smile like the sunrise”

(I know ya’ll remember the group City High)

Thin waist, thick thighs…inexpensive taste

Cuz ma clothes don’t define me

N you trying to find words to describe me, would surely be a waste

Of your time and energy, so forget me

Cuz that ain’t what this is about

So just sit back and let ma lyrics hit your membrane like tidal waves, its insane

Na its sick so admit me, or betta yet commit me cuz I’m committed to this life to win

You prolly thought I was gon say committed to a life of sin

But this a winners game and if you sinning you sure ain’t winning

And I don’t play the game unless if in the end I’ll win

And I always do cuz I know betta than to follow you

No telling where you’ll lead me

Or what kind of lies you’ll try n feed me

And I ain’t trying to starve

So I’ll stay full on his word

Cuz it’s the truth and I don’t need any proof

He’s done it before and I’m positive he’ll do it again

Following Christ can deliver you from sin…bondage…depression…he’ll even tha recession

Ma pockets stay fat, you can believe that

(Hmm…I see we have some doubters)

Don’t believe me, he said it in is word “No weapon formed against me shall prosper”

You can find that in Isaiah chapter 54, verse 17

And please don’t get it twisted, I’m not tryna stand up here and preach to you, like I’m “Holier than thou” cuz I’m on the same path, I’m just tryna do the right thing

I’m walking the same pace, running the same race, trying my best not to lose my place

I’m on a mission to save lives

I’m heaven sent, so none of this should be a surprise

I know sometimes its get hard out here

But if you give your life to Christ, you’ll have nothing to fear

Hell, I’m only 22, college grad, no kids, stable job

But I’m out here struggling just like the rest of ya’ll

But I keep on pushin, keeping ma faith strong

Living my life for God, I will never go wrong

This is a public announcement and I’m trying to ma best to announce it

“Come to me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest” (Matthew 11:28)

Trust, I put his word to the test.

Tha Virtuous One™

(Written June 2, 2009)

Husband Potential

When I close my eyes

I tend to imagine you in my mind

I can see your face

In a distant place

But your near to me

I can feel you in my soul

Apart of me like my bones

Without you I'm just flesh

But with you I'm the best

Like Drake say, "The Best You Ever Had"

Well I'm the best you never had

Cuz we're still two strangers

Who have yet to cross paths

I call you my husband potential

Cuz you could potentially be my husband

And I could potientally be your wife

But I know that its up to God to give my desires a life

I mean you have all of the charateristics

But I ain't trying to end up a statistic

Marriage is a lifetime, not a life line

So although it is better to marry than to burn in sin

I think I'll take my chances and just wait on HIM (God)

For those who wait on the Lord, shall renew their strength (Isaish 40:31)

Me plus You equates to God's Love (raised) to the tenth, so I'll be patient

And they say patience is a virtue,

and you know I'm Virtuous

I'm also very compassionate and nuturing

But that's neither here nor there

What matters is that you reach your potential

So we can one day make this thing official.

ThaVirtuousOne™

(Written May 14, 2009)

I Chose God

I should have known from my past

That this love would never last

Kept trying to make myself believe

In something that was never meant to be

But I needed this to work

So I could prove myself worth

I was blinded by your love

Held onto to your every word

It all sounded good to me

So I thought, man this must surely be

But my mama always told me

Baby “what’s good to you, ain’t always good for you”

But just like sweets, I was addicted…

Hook on you like a bad habit

Kept chasing that “carrot”

Like I was Bugs Bunny, the rabbit

Didn’t have the time

To think with my mind

So I followed my heart

When I should have used my head

I listen to “Miss Thang” between my legs

I let my hormones speak

When they don’t even have a brain to think

I was caught up in a world wind of sin

Should have known that I would never win

Pleasing you was my main goal

Never crossed my mind that I’d lose my soul

I love you, but I love God more

So I chose God

And maybe you should do the same

Cuz without him there’s no need to play the game

I’ve learned my lesson

No longer am I stressin’

I’m putting God first

Cuz he’s the ONLY ONE who can quench my thirst

So the next time around

I will hold my ground

Stand firm in my beliefs

And continue my journey with celibacy

Until the day…my [KING] comes to rescue me.

Tha Virtuous One™

(March 30, 2009)

Friend

We started off as friends

Those late night phone calls seemed to never end

I could talk to you about whateva

Never crossed my mind you'd be so damn clever

You knew me better than I knew myself

Gave me great advice on how to keep up with my health

Cuz I was way passed stressed out

Mentally...emotionally...physically

But you healed me spiritually

Came out of nowhere like my knight in shining armor

To have the chance to be with you was an honor

I looked up to you like my father

Cuz eventhough he wasn't always around

He knew just what to say to turn my frown, upside down

You made me smile when I didn't want to

Laugh to my stomach hurt

Cry till there were no tears left

But they were tears of happiness

Cuz you knew just how to capture the best of my emotions

You made me wanna catch a sail and sail the oceans

Get away from all the drama

It was the little things that mattered

Like a phone call from yo mama

To tell you, baby I love you

Our friendship was sweet like sweet potatoe pie

Cuz that's my favorite

But you know that

Like my favorite color is purple

Or my favorite food is Italian

You knew everything and I never had to remind you

Cuz you paid attention

Not like all those other dudes

Na you were the one

We spent so much time together

You always there for me and I was there for you

Hell, we were inseparable

Flyer than any thousand dollar collectible

And yes, you can say I said that

We use to hang out at all times of the night

You had my back when me and "ole boy" use to fight

About absolutely nothing, but you couldn't tell me nothing

Cuz I was in love, spelt L.O.V.E

To bad I didn't have enough for me

But you did

Way more than I could imagine

It was like heaven and you were Aladdin

Riding on his magic carpet to get his Jazmine

I'm so glad you came into my life

I sit here hoping to one day become your wife.

Tha Virtuous One™

(Written March 25, 2009)

I Need Love

I try not to remind my mind

Of the very first time I feel in love with him

Thoughts of his kisses brings reminiscesOf the love we made

He caught me by surprise

The way his beautiful brown eyes looked deep into mines

Its like he could read my soul

And everything inside of me told me to be bold

But he took the first step

And we got to know each other a little more in depth

His compassion for his passion was more than I could imagine

Left me mesmerized thinkin' how could this happen

Our love was unconditional, that AGAPE love

Nothing about it was sexual, you know that EROS love

In 1st Timothy, Chapter 6 verses 9 through 11

It talks about this man of God, who was sent straight to me from heaven

For he pursues righteousness, godliness, faith, love, endurance and gentleness cuz he's a gentleman

His sole purpose in life is not to be rich, for he is not a lover of money

But he seeks a Virtuous Woman who's love is sweeter than honey

Now that's right on tha money cuz I feel as tho I AM THAT HONEY!

I am trustworthy, productive, economical, strong physically and morally

I take care of myself, my household and I care for the poor and less fortunate

I definitely know how to dress to impress,

but most of all I walk around like I have some dignity for myself

For a woman who fears God, is worthy to be praised

They must be talkin' bout me cuz Tha Virtuous One is my name

Na but true story I still have to work on some thangs

But I'm striving to be virtuous like I'm ahead of tha game

Real talk tho, I need love, so I'm searching for the right lover

In the sense of a homie, lover, friend...not the kind of love from my mother

So ima take tha back seat and give Jesus the wheel

Cuz in his perfect time my destiny will be fulfilled

I will be patient and kind

Until I find that love that reminds me of the very first time.

Tha Virtuous One™
(Written August 1, 2008)

My Truth

I grew up a daddy's girl

Until he split and left me alone without a care in the world

So I really never had a father figga

Guess that's why I looked for comfort in a hood nigga

Running around town letting these niggas get in my head

When all they really wanna do is get me in dey bed

I was blessed to have a mother like mines

Cuz she constantly stayed on my black behind

So I was spared the whole "yous a hoe" line

Still don't mean that I didn't commit the same crime

Lost my virginity at the tender age of seventeen

Woke up the next day hoping it was all a dream

The reality hit me full force

Cuz I was no longer a member of the V-Club anymore

I had lost my purity and along came all of my insecurities

How could I let him have something that was so dear to me?

This was a verse that I could not rehearse or just press reverse

Cuz the time kept on ticking and something was still missing

When I looked in the mirror, my reflection wasn't the same

I sat there wishing I hadn't got caught up in his game

The good news is I did know his...real...name

The bad news is I only had myself to blame

What a shame?

This is a true story written by so many of us

Once lost in this world, don't know who to trust

But if I must, can I tell you of a man I know

Who forgived my sins and restored my soul

I was made whole, in God I am bold

That's why I couldn't leave this story untold

The peace I feel inside is worth more than silver and gold

It can't be replaced, no not even erased

Can't you see the joy on my face!

In Jesus Christ I am stronger

I am wiser

I am better than I have ever been before

So glad I was there when he knocked on my door

That's why I'm not afraid to stand up and proclaim it

Anything that he asks of me, you name it

Cuz he made me in his perfect image

Being a beautiful, black, smart, educated woman is a privilege

I am the truth, so I've answered call

He didn't send me alone so I'm not afraid to fall

Before him I place none

That's why they call me...THA VIRTUOUS ONE!!!

Tha Virtuous One™
(Written July 15, 2008)

The Choice Was Made

I may have missed out

On a love that was meant to be

To bad I couldn't see

What was right in front of me

My heart was torn

Or maybe it was scorn

I had one foot out the door

And the other right before

I couldn't get it together

Another day might have would've made it better

But the opportunity passed on by

Wish I could've opened my wings to fly

Like a butterfly in the sky

To hide myself from all the "what if's"

Well what if things would've happened differently

No need to question destiny cuz what is suppose to be will surely be

I was consumed by all the hurt and despair

Feeling a little like life was unfair

Until I realized

That I had mentalized

This whole thing

Mad because it wasn't me who received the ring

Of a promise of a love for enternity

Guess that's what I get for acting so slowly

But I don't regret what I said or did

Cuz it was all apart of what made me who I is

I never would've learned the lesson

Still would've been running around here stressin

Lettin' these niggas get in my head

Thinkin about how they gone get me in they bed

I had to fall down to know how to get up

Didn't mean to hurt your feelings, guess that was kinda messed up

But the choice was made

And the price was paid

Near the end of the road

Trying to carry too much of a load

The clock is ticking and its running out of time

Two hearts still bleeding, man this must be a crime

It is and a sad reality

Too much for my mentality

Still trying to digest

Don't want to settle for anything less

What a tragedy

Please somebody put me out my misery

Got a couple days left and it'll all be over

So I ain't trippin' just means I'll have to start over

But not in search to find something to fill this void

I'll avoid that part and just rely on the Lord

Cuz he said he'll never leave me or forsake me

So I put my trust in that and let him take me

To a higher place where my mind won't be confined

By the choice that was made in such a short time

Tha Virtuous One™

Sex Was Not An Option!

As we layed down and I took off my clothes,

he vowed not to look me in the eyes as I tried to pose.

I told him to go deeper, to my lowest depth.

I lay there dreaming as we slept.

I could feel the warmth from his body pressed up against my back.

Intertwined like a grape vine, it felt good to me and that's a fact.

He knew me better than I knew myself,

took me on a journey to find my wealth.

I was awaken by his touch, ran his fingers through my hair as he whispered in my ear.

He said that there was no prize to be won and this was not a race,

for there was something he had to tell me face to face.

Sex was not an option, this was not up for debate.

His celibacy was the answer to this mystery.

A Virtuous Woman is what I became,

that's what he called me cuz he didn't know my real name.

Two strangers making love with our minds,

intellectual love is the very best kind.

I was turned on by all the knowlegde he spoke,

felt like I couldn't breath, damn near choked.

Cuz I was blown away by his presence,

the way he carried hisself was of great essence.

I felt like I was dreaming cuz he didn't want anything from me.

He only wanted my time, to sit back and watch the sun rise.

We made an ordinary moment an extraordinary memory.

I'll never forget how he touched my soul and changed my life,

I hope that someday I'll become his wife.

But for now I'll remain a faithfull friend, in hopes that we'll be friends to the end.

Thanks be to those who seek, not settle for less!

A love that only God could attest.

He sent him to me for this I know,

so I've opened up the door to my heart once more.

Ready and willing to receive my blessing, so I can stop stressing.

About the things in life I cannot change,

I'm done with my past, I'm threw with the pain.

Tha Virtuous One™

(Written June 2, 2008)

From the beginning...

Ever since I was a little girl, I have always dreamed of having a family of my own one day. In fact, one of my favorite games to play as a child was "House" and I always wanted to be the mother. As a child I didn't pay much attention to just why that was, truth be told it wasn't really until I began my spiritual journey with Christ that I really began to comprehend it all. Most people I know, aspire to be world-renowned singers, Oscar-winning actors, or even Americas Next Top Model. But that has never really been the case for me. Eventhough becoming a distinguished poet would be a really nice accomplishment for me. I have always desired to be known for one thing and one thing only. A great wife and mother. One of my favorite scriptures in the bible is Proverbs 31: 10-31 "A Virtuous Woman who can find? For her price is far above rubies." When I first read this scripture I thought to myself, "Wow, I want to be just like her." She is wise, economical, productive, trustworthy, generous, compassionate, kind, confident, but most of all, she fears God. So when I compared myself to her, I realized that I didn't quite measure up in aspects of what it meant to be a Virtuous Woman and so the Tha Virtuous One was born. I call myself Tha Virtuous One because I am striving to be like the woman talked about in Proverbs. I realize that I will never been great at all those things, but I can best woman that God has created me to be with all the gifts and tools he has equipped me with. This blog is a dedication to my journey, a lifelong pursuit to become the Virtuous Woman God has destined me to be. God wants us to be transparent with him as well as with each other. So my goal is to be transparent with you, my readers and share my testimony that it may be a blessing to someone else. I will be displaying my poetry as well as miscellaneous discussion topics on relationships, love, friendships, marriage, singleness, celibacy and a plethora of other topics that relate to life itself. Please understand that these are only my views and I understand that not everyone will agree with me. In fact, I would love to hear your views, so please be sure to leave a comment. "I love you and there is nothing you can do about it" - St. Johns Downtown

With all the love I have to give,

Tha Virtuous One™